ashleyandjoseslife20 asked: hey girl :) I'm back on here do you still write on here?
Yes I do now I just forgot my log ins… That goes for everyone!
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How is everyone today? Me I’m on my way to a place near Erie lake…. Okay so it’s my first time out of Kentucky and I could not be wanting this trip more! How is everyone in the cyber world?
To; Everyone (But really to you)
Next time I find that someone is plotting , or tring to ruin my relashionship again with these people whom are my famliy and i love them very much i can and will DISTROY you! no matter how meny times he messes up, no mater how meny times we may be mad at eachother we can and will fight thur it. I love him. He loves me. its not as simple as 2+2 but we work. so when i say BACK THE FUCK OUT OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. I mean it. i dont care if hes bad for me i dont care if i am bad for him. YOU have no say. This thing is between me and him. not me him and the little boy next door. or the woman with a millon cats next door. its me and him ONLY. if we need help to work it out we will go to some one we can trust. like mama. END OF STORY:)
So you want to k ow what happened to me?! Yeah I was betrayed by my so called best friend… Yup! See I needed advice to talk to someone so I asked the so called best friend for help I asked how I should a person go about talking to a mother person if I believe some one is going to be calling CPS on the mother person?!?! Now keep in mind this woman is one of the best mothers I have ever met but the person calli g does not believe so . So then some how that got turned in too I am the one calling CPS and I’m taking the child away to be put in my custody … Now what I did say was that I was going to fight like hell for custody for that kid cause I’ll be damed if he grows up in a group home like I did at one point. So while I was tring to protect someone and figure out how to approach a subject that so called friend went and told that mother person I was calli g CPS so I could get custody of her child cause I believe she is a bad mother…. Yeah!! WTF!!!! So again I have absolutely no one to talk to…. I feel hurt lost sad and pissed off my entire mood is In other chaos. It’s times like this I miss Brandon, Nicky, and Alissa …. But even if I could talk to there ghost I already know what they would say “their loss” hmmm so in this conclusion I would like to say Shelby and Nicole R. Are no longer my friends scause they stir up drama like my Grammy stirs her stew.
Remeber it was suposse to be just you and me tonight, well its 9:44pm and your not here…i cant really blame you they did “HELP” yea right… why cant you for once be yourself? why cant you say how you really feel? me I’m so sick of hiding, im sick and tired of being afraid you wont like me. I’m sick of being nice to people who are bitches behind my back…if you read all of my journals im sure you’d see the real me. christan why are you so nice to people who want to distroy you? i belive in forginving people I always have, but they first have to show they are worth forgiving and take ownership of what they did wrong. TOMORRO I CHANGE FOR ME, ITS A SLOW PROSESS BUT, IT WILL BE ME! My only hope is you dont hate it, cause i stand up for what i belive in. I stand aginst pot,and drinking and driveing, and i stand against people who only use people . i am were i am to day because of ME. i used no one. so dont let them use you, and dont you use them. when was the last time you stood up for something you belived in ?
did you know i’m terified of storms? yup always have been. for as long as i can remeber… but to get thru them i tell myself the earth and sky are haveing a disagreement.
looki get it being yourself is hard, most of the time you wanna “ACT” cool in front of your friends, but if you cant be true to them, how will you ever be true to yourself? or me?
If by some chance this thing ever gets published, promise me if your reading it your not going to be scared of who you are. if your a nerd, so what your smart dont let if go to your head, if you wanna be a writer then please send your stuff out there. and if you have a dad whom is a ass hole and always is promising you shit. remeber he had a dad once too that mostlikely did the same exact shit to hime, that makes them fathers not dads.
so weather it is to you friends, Fathers, Mothers, Or that random dude on the side walk stand up for what you want to , dont let people push you around. it might be scary. you might want to run but in the end, you will thank yourself for it.
ugh! I feel like shit! iI woke up with a bad headache,hit my friends hands with a cane and told the house bitch to fuck off….
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